Wheel-of-Fortune & The Subconscious Mind

What if a conscious failure was a subconscious victory…

When the Tarot’s wisdom and its numerology meet in psychogenealogy!

First Part

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In the following case study [1] you are going to discover that behind a simple or complex issue could be hiding something else which might have kept in check many researched and applied solutions and so, for maybe many years.


This is Juliette’s case, a Parisian client. She hasn’t been able to solve her weight issue and despite lots of research and a strong personal will it is still unresolved. What actually happens if while an apparent and recurrent issue is indeed a subconscious solution to something else, deeper and buried within a human being’s individual and familial subconscious minds, defeating any willingness to resolve the so called today’s issue?


All throughout this article, Tarot numerology is going to support the transgenerational work that Juliette and myself did together using the Tarot, her Path of Life interpretation as well as those of many of her family members and the analysis of the so-called “season energies” linked to human cycles, so that she could understand her subconscious victory behind her successive failures to lose her extra kilos.

Born on March 23, 1961, Juliette’s mother, Joséphine is then in a year 22 [2] which represents a a year of structure (because the fundamental vibration of 22 is 4) which means the energy 4 is going through the 22’s, the Fool [3]. So it’s a matter of liberating structures particularly at a mental level but also at a belief level, because a season 22 is the season of transgressions. In a year 22, an individual may experience an impulse toward unknown horizons with a promise of change, or at least something different. So, Joséphine, pregnant with Juliette, might have tasted or purely experienced the liberating feeling of distancing herself from certain thoughts, beliefs and patterns which so far had, without a doubt, bogged down her spirit tethered to the post of submissiveness, which, according to Juliette entangled her mother during her entire childhood and her life as a woman until then.

So Juliette’s mother decides to take her “bat and ball” as they say and to distance herself from her in-laws’ influence by deciding to call her daughter Juliette. Why would this name be so attractive to Joséphine and so scary for her husband and his own mother?

Actually, Juliette was also her paternal great-great grand-mother’s name. With what was it loaded to create such resistance from her father and her paternal grand-mother toward this particular name?

L'inconscient dans l'arbre - 02 Well, it happens that her paternal great-great grand-mother had an illegitimate child, Juliette’s paternal great grand-father. This Juliette from the past was a disgrace for her family, her child a humiliation who carried all his life the heavy identity of the “bastard.” Juliette’s father knows this story from his own mother, Juliette’s grand-mother. It hasn’t been hidden by the generations.

Unmarried and single mother, Juliette’s great-great grand-mother not only shares her first name with Juliette but also her last name since Juliette’s great grand-father, the so-called “bastard”, had a son, Juliette’s paternal grand-father, who had a son as well, Juliette’s father. To have the same first name and the same family name as an ancestor tells a lot about the links and the transgenerational inheritance that exists between those two women.

Five generations later, Juliette turns up at the beginning of the sixties, inheriting not only her name but the emotional burden from her paternal great-great grand-mother and her descendants who have carried the memory of shame and humiliation. So, how could have occurred this filiation of shame?

First of all, let us place Juliette in her current context. It’s in 2016, a year 8 for Juliette, that she starts her transgenerational work. The 8 represents indeed the karmic healing season. It’s therefore an excellent period of time for anyone to feel tangibly all the unresolved issues inherited from our ancestors. During that year, Juliette gathers a large amount of genealogical data which would become the rich breeding ground of her understanding, allowing her to considerably expand her consciousness. Shifting into a year 9 at the beginning of 2017, Juliette intuitively perceives the thrust of the energies of conclusion, typically linked to a year 9. She knows she is about to close old files, singled out and analyzed the previous year. Her transgenerational work will obviously help Juliette to re-open memories left unattended because they were too painful to approach.

Juliette is in between 3 and 5 years old, she is having a bath and it’s her father who is washing her. She is relatively chubby, her little rolls are exposed even accentuated by her sitting posture. Her father makes the following comment which would remain in her memory: “Well, one must go through lots of layers before reaching your pussy!” It’s going to be the last time Juliette allows her father to give her a bath. She kept from this memory a certain uneasiness but she never really understood it, let alone cleared it. It was left in suspens until now, meaning, 50 years later.

After a major dream revealing to her a part of her psychic structure, this incident surfaces. It’s during a meditation that Juliette relives that scene allowing her to see again her father’s glance upon her body. His disgust and his uneasiness arrowed through her. The filiation was accomplished. She took her father’s emotions at face value and immediately they became hers because “at this age our identify is not yet formed to do otherwise.”[4] Without having the ability to question her father’s remark, her body imprints the stigma of shame and guilt of being too big carried since her great-great grand-mother. Actually, in French popular language “to be big” is synonymous with “being pregnant” and in her case it was a shameful experience since she was a single mother. It is important to remember here that the subconscious mind is built like a language, according to Jacques Lacan.[5] It would also be valuable to add that the subconscious is literal, as per the letter.

L'inconscient dans l'arbre - 03 Even though Juliette doesn’t know the exact date of birth of her great-great grand-mother, it’s around the 1830s in France under the Second Empire. Just to give you an idea in regard to women’s status in this first third of the nineteenth century, the Church, monarchists and republicans are denying women access to education, pretexting that their nature is to be totally devoted to domestic chores and maternity. They had to wait the Duruy's law in 1867 for the State to agree to make an effort to educate women (each community of more than 500 inhabitants had to have a girl’s school.”[6] You must also know that 28% of births were illegal and often the babies were abandoned. To control this rampant infanticide during that period, the 19th-July statutory order was put in place and hospitable buildings in France and also in Belgium were organized for those children.

So, this great-great grand-mother had to face strong social pressure to keep her child. Perceiving her great-great grand-mother’s soul’s strength, ties of recognition toward this foremother start to emerge in Juliette’s consciousness. She feels a subtle current rising along her tree and reaching this woman. One must recognize that the Juliette from the past chose life and to do so, she had to endure shame and humiliation. Gratitude toward her great-great grand-mother allows Juliette to initiate a healing process for the preceding generations up to her.

In this story, one can easily see the relationship between this woman from the beginning of the nineteenth century and her great-great grand-daughter and the existing filiation between themselves carrying the same first name and family name. To be fat [remember that in French it also means “to be pregnant”] is shameful and painful. And yes, Juliette has a hard time to lose weight which could change her status and perhaps eliminate her shame related to her body. But it doesn’t work because her vital force is streaming through this pregnancy and delivery of her great grand-father, without whom, Juliette wouldn’t be here to tell her story. So, for her subconscious mind, to be fat is synonymous with being alive. You will easily understand why diets as virtuous as they might be, can’t really compete in the face of the threat of losing her life. Once again, remember that the subconscious mind is literal. We can also understand why Juliette’s father and grand-mother don’t wish her to be named “Juliette” like this single mother, because a reminder of what has marked the family with shame wasn’t really desirable.

As an aside, in 1961, Juliette’s father is personally in a year 6, season of mutation and his own mother, Juliette’s grand-mother, is in a year 5, season of opening and evolution. According to Thomas Edye and many other authors, children come to help parents. Thanks to her large build and her first name, Juliette, without knowing it at the time, brings up the memory, which needed to be cleared and pushes her father to embrace the mutation forces present then for him during his daughter’s year of birth. As of Juliette’s grand-mother, coming from a different tree, she is learning to be open-minded rather than shutting herself away into moralizing, the dark aspect linked to a season 5, which is linked to the Pope within the Tarot.

Juliette is here to rehabilitate this foremother and to help her father to free himself from the burden of shame and illegitimacy. Having said that, for Juliette being fat is after all an obsolete survival mechanism… which holds her back in her personal evolution.”[7]

Thus finishes the first part of this case study. The next one will open upon Juliette’s maternal tree and the subconscious links woven throughout so that you can discover that there too, Juliette is attempting to repair the past through her on going weight issue.

Second Part

L'inconscient dans l'arbre - 04 So, what about Juliette’s mother who, after all, doesn’t belong to this genealogical tree? It is Josephine who has the idea and the desire to call her daughter Juliette! It’s clear she might find here an ideal leverage to stand up to her in-laws for whom this name is disturbing and shyly urged by her year 22, she attempts to transgress the taboo linked to this name. One of the most negative sides of the Fool [22] is stubbornness, a hindered aspect that personal power (the fundamental 4) can take, when it has a hard time to find its fluid and natural expression. This too, expresses Josephine’s experience.

Let’s go back to Juliette’s mother, Josephine. To be succinct, born premature, she doesn’t measure up to the situation in which she comes into. Actually, her father is sick and will die three months after her birth. As for his wife, she will abandon their child, Josephine, during the first five years of her life and then takes her back and makes her live a hell of harshness and meanness. Josephine’s subconscious life project is to measure up (here you have to know that in French the word “weight” is used for this particular expression, which could be literally translated by: to make the weight), therefore in her psyche, the notion of weight and gaining weight (she is premature) is a question of security and survival. She is 36 when she is pregnant with Juliette and in a year 22, she subconsciously tries to exploit her child, Juliette, putting her not only between herself and her own mother, asking Juliette to play the protecting role of the father she didn’t have because he died too young, but also, between herself and her mother-in-law, whose authority is too overpowering and oppressive.

So Juliette has a subconscious duty to protect her mother. She is the ideal buffer and moreover, destined to measure up. It suddenly appears to Juliette that to be overweight has a symbolic value and it’s a subconscious victory since she then can be imposing and as a result be protective of her mother.

Once more, the subconscious mind literally treats the problem. So to measure up, to put weight on, her mother’s subconscious life project becomes Juliette’s duty because her mother subconsciously is asking Juliette to protect her. To be big is a means to keep her mother alive, so here again, it’s a question of survival.

Juliette is tied up between the shame of being fat and the necessity to be so. Her will to diet and her resolution to exercise are constantly doomed to failure by her subconscious need, clearly linked to this pattern of which slimness doesn’t belong to the protocol.

L'inconscient dans l'arbre - 05 It’s quite surprising to notice the law of resonance in action in Juliette’s story. Josephine, her mother who doesn’t know the details of her husband’s paternal great grand-mother, yet would choose among thousands of available first names in fashion at the time, her very first name. Stimulated from within by the energy of the Fool, present for her in 1961, year of Juliette’s birth, Josephine insists on naming her daughter likewise, despite the debate and arguments from her in-laws. That choice is going to become the means of this inner battle in order to recover a little bit of freedom invariably annexed by her own mother and her mother-in-law later on. Josephine hangs on and wins.

This genealogical understanding is a breakthrough for Juliette, who now doesn’t perceive her weight issue in the same way. Instead of wanting to suppress her belly that she is ashamed of and which prevents her to fully experience her body, she welcomes it by recognizing its subconscious value. Juliette also succeeds in building a bridge along five unending generations of shame and humiliation, to bring some sort of relief to her foremother from so much suffering. Without her disgraceful body shape, Juliette would never have realized the link with the other Juliette from the tree.

Without changing anything in her diet, Juliette’s body started to empty itself. Today, Juliette has several tools at her disposal to keep clearing this memory. First of all, the Ho’oponopono prayer. If you wish to know more, I invite you to click on the link. She also practices family constellation which allowed her to reorganize her family system and reestablish the flow from the broken links. In parallel, she regularly uses meditation to open her consciousness to other realities.

She continues to get support from Tarot Numerology which allowed her to collect essential elements in correlation to her today’s issue in relationship to her transgenerational inheritance, totally alive at the core of her own intimacy and identity as a woman. Actually, knowing what was karmically at stake in her season 8, Juliette started to see the links between forgotten and buried memories, which stimulated her to put an end to this identification and to be able to experience her body without the family stigma of shame and humiliation.

L'inconscient dans l'arbre - 06 Juliette is no longer preoccupied by diets and exercise programs and since this breakthrough she is no longer putting weight on. She deeply senses that her remaining kilos are lighter than before. She is convinced when all bonds of love within her genealogy will be restored, Juliette will know a completely different relationship to her own body. Moreover, Juliette will be at the beginning of a cycle in 2018 which carries the promise not to repeat life from the same identity base than the preceding cycles. Juliette understand, very well we don’t change the past, nor its load of suffering but we can de-identify from it.

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If you are interested by such work, know that it happens in stages of one hour to one and a half hours consultation, in person or via skype. Several Tarot decks and other similar tools are used according to the client’s needs. Don’t hesitate to contact me by email to know more about it.

NOTES
[1] This work took place during more than one year, in many stages. You won’t have here all the details and draws that have been done to come to this clarity in causes and consequences.
[2] Those calculations are based on Tarot numerology - click here to know more.
[3] Though the Fool doesn’t have a number, it can be physically counted as the 22nd major arcana of the Tarot. It’s the reason why we keep the number “22” and don’t reduce it to 4.
[4] Hannah Sembély - Psychologist
[5] Jacques Lacan is a French psychoanalyst. He is a major interpreter of Freud and gives birth to a new psychoanalytic movement: the "Lacanisme".
[6] History of women during the nineteenth century - link (Website in French only)
[7] Thomas Edye - The Transgenerational Archetypes